Help! I Think I've Fallen In Love!

It's strange the way I feel
Not sure how far I wanna go
Everythings changing
Feeling so different from before

I remember the first time we met
Don't think I'll ever forget
How I first felt when I looked at you
So innocent, young and free
But I don't think I realised what I knew

Chorus

Cause boy, I think I've fallen for you
And I'm not sure what to do
Cause I feel so alone, it's so forbidden
Do I say it's alright or do I tell what I'm feeling

I remember the way you say my name
And how I long for more
It was only yesterday
When I realised what I've got
Oh

Bridge

I know, that I've always been distant
I'm an introvert, what did you expect
But now, do I spread these wings
And fly or do I curl up to cry

Chorus

Bridge

So what am I meant to do
In this head,
All I think about is you


Okay, fine, I'll admit it. I think I've fallen in love with a guy at my Youth group. This has never happened before... not to this extreme. I pushed him last night, just to tease him and... I could feel a slight tingling feeling going up my fingers and I felt all weird and fuzzy.... but there's one problem.

It's my best friend's crush. And he likes her back.

What's a girl meant to do, when the only thing she can think about is him, yet all he can think about is another her?

(Also, I wrote the song up there, you can use it in a songfic if you wish, but please, please, please, credit it to Shona, xelusive memoriesx on HPFF and SAYS)

I wanna spread my wings

I'm annoyed. I warn you now that this post is a rant.

Why does everyone always make my decisions for me? I want to do so many things... I want to preach, I want to write, I want to be free and do all things I've always felt a special connection with. I want to help out with the creche at my church, I want to be given a chance to do something!

But no one ever gives me that chance. The only things I'm doing at the moment to help out Youth is overheads and sound... sometimes I get the feeling I'm the only one, besides Andrew who's the one singing, who actually knows how to use the desk at Youth. I'm running the entire sound desk, which means that I've got no chance to spread my wings.

People confine me to the back, a behind the scenes worker. But I'm not that kinda girl. I can do things and God spoke to me last night telling me I'm going to do something BIG this year for Him. But will anyone give me the chance I need?

I'm not a forceful person. I can tell you now, that although I'm a good speaker, I hate asking for things. Whether it's to help out, or if they've got something, I hate it. I even find it hard to ask people how their week went!

All I want is a chance to shine for God, to let his light shine through me and attract the world.