What A Night!

I don't know how I feel at the moment, but last night at Youth was so amazing.

Firstly, Josh was there. He was looking cuter? Beautifull-er? Hotter? I don't know what the word was, but more of something than usual. He was on overheads and made us laugh and stuff. It was so nice just to see him and I thought I was being driven crazy, not sure how long I'd be able to handle my secret of liking him.

Elise didn't come. I had had a fight with her earlier and I felt really crushed, just seeing her replace me. She'd asked me to do something for the talent quest and I said no, but said I could do something else and offerered the alternative of making a music video where she could still sing, rather than doing a duet because I can't carry a tune. Then she went and got someone else to do the duet and I knew, that as usual I was invisible. I knew that she hadn't heard a word I'd said and that frankly, she didn't care. She said that we could talk about it later and then went straight ahead and gave the duet to Leah.

But, back to Youth. Andrew gave me a new song to type up. There were two sheets of paper with the words on them, but he'd put them on top of each other exactly, so that you couldn't see the second sheet. I did the first sheet and couldn't see the second. Then, Josh was on overheads. So, he got the song ready, while I did sound and forced me to do that song, just cause he didn't know it. So I did, and Andrew was singing the bit on the second page and everyone was turning back and there was all this drama.

Later, after the service, Andrew pulled me and Josh aside. He wants us to be trainee youth leaders. Me and Josh. No other new ones, just me and Josh. I thought we were in trouble or something about the song, but no, he wants me to be a trainee leader.

The only thing on that sheet that I don't have, the only thing that is possibly a setback is the fact that I haven't been baptised in water. So I just have to do that sometime soon, schedule it or watever in the next 8 weeks and I can be a trainee leader. How amazing is that?

And now I feel that I can do anything. That I am important. And for some reason, even though I'm still madly in love with Josh, I don't have to think about it anymore. I can live with the secret. It's not a big deal any more.

Well I'm signing off. :) comments'd be great!