Now I finally know it's true
I've fallen in love with you
And even though you love her
And I pretend I don't care
Inside I'm bleeding for you
^^ a verse in my latest song...
Josh is so beautiful and amazing. He glides and smiles, rarely, and usually a smirk, granted, but it's just great. Wow, I've fallen for the Beauty with the inner Beast..............................
What am I gonna do? I can't stop myself, but I can't touch him, can I? We're on opposite ends of the food chain... it doesn't work...
And I get a sneaking suspicion my parents want me to like him, after all, we're at his house almost every 3rd weekend, we've been on 2 holiday's with his family and my parents ask things like "Was Nathan at youth last night? What about JOSH' etc. etc. etc.
What's a girl meant to do when the only thing she can think about is him but the only thing he can think about is another her?
4 comments:
Shona, I'm feeling so bad for you right now. And if I'm feeling bad for you, I can only imagine how you're feeling....like your heart is being stompted on, I'll bet? Oww, that must hurt. I feel so bad for you! :-(
Write. Keep on writing, listening to music...whatever it is that makes you feel less stressed. And you really have no idea what's happening in his mind, Shona, so don't try to compare yourself with your friend. It's soooo hard, I know-but you really are special, you really, really, are, and if he can't see it, that his problem, not yours. As for your parents...well, I suppose they have to worry about him, not you, since there's nothing you can do right now. :-)
Again, I know this is going to be going into one of your writings one day, or else your songs are going to become realities. And because although I'm sure it feels like it, you're not alone. You're really not. As hard as it is, you WILL survive this, you really will. As for now? Pamper yourself. Keep on telling you that you're great-because you are, you really are, and I really mean that.
Hope you feel better!
*huggle glomp*
-Mara, :-(
My heart goes out to you, Shona, it really does. I'm praying for you and I'll continue praying for you. I hope you pray to God about this and see what he says about him.
It's such an awkward situation to be in, isn't it? To love the one who loves your best friend. To me, it's like Sirius in those Sirius/Lily ships . . . he's the one who doesn't get the girl, but James does. But Sirius and Lily and James didn't have God . . . they're characters in a fictional story. All the advice I can possibly give you, is nothing more than trusting in God and praying to God and not letting yourself get down. Shine Shona, and maybe he will see some of God's light in you.
*huggles* I really hope you feel better.
Btw, your songs are beautiful. I loved the verses you posted.
Thanks so much Delta! I'm glad you like the songs and thank you so much for praying for me!
God is my foundation... my rock and my light. I do nothing without asking Him first... and I will continue to do that, even if my life is threatened.
Thanks again Delta! :)
Thanks Mara. Whatever happens, I'm so glad I've got wonderful friends online to help me feel better!
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